We Are Back Together, If You Can Call It That

I realize I haven't updated anything on this blog in some months, so here it is.

We stayed away from each other for a bit. In the scheme of things, it really wasn't that long. I honestly cannot remember how long it was. I was so incredibly sad and tired of being depressed so I accepted his reasons for not leaving his marriage (again) and took him back.

Perhaps he always knew that I would. Maybe so..maybe not. He has been much more attentive towards me since then. I guess he figured he almost "lost" me so for now, he isn't taking me for granted.

For now, it is working for me like it is. I don't feel as if I'm selling myself short, I'm not really the type that feels I need a man in my life to be happy, I know that I can be happy no matter what my circumstance...I guess you'd say that I'm a pretty positive person.

So I am taking things one day at a time and I'm happy for now. We'll see. So we're back together, if you can call it that--as we really aren't together in the way that most people would describe being together: no marriage, no open transparent relationship in all public places, no taking and planning vacations together, no family reunions, etc...But it feels like we're married in the emotional sense. He is my best friend and I am his. When we do see each other, it's the most powerful connection I've ever had with a man: kind of like a honeymoon all the time.

Maybe that's why it feels so good. We don't have to deal with each other, day in and out, come home to one another or make decisions about financial or family matters that married couples do, we rarely disagree and when we do, we are able to work things out pretty easily; we don't have kids together so there's no parenting issues to deal with, and we don't have to consult with each other on major decisions.

Yet we often do consult each other on decisions and advice. And in doing so, we become even more emotionally connected.

So it's back to one day at a time for me.
Until next time,
The Other Woman